To be perfectly honest, I will be happy to see the BACK of 2013. For all the nice things that happened, there has been too much stress and tension. The last few weeks including right now, our family has bickered and fought with each other. We are all touchy, and hostile and has made the holidays a rough ride for all involved. Bad news about the health of family and friends over the last couple of weeks has not helped the mood.
The only time that there was any fun in 2013 was our media trip to Disneyland in the spring and our few days at the cabin on Vancouver Island..that trip in particular, I could feel the tension drain out of me as I sat on our little beach.
2013 angered me. I met some amazing people and we created amazing things together but throughout all, I have felt a growing sense of frustration and anger at how ‘stuff’ is and a growing need to change things.
I don’t make New Years resolutions, but I do resolve in 2014 to TRY to make the changes I can to what I do control. I don’t like myself these days and I don’t like living in this miasma of negative energy and I don’t like how it affects those around me. THAT needs fixed right now.
I don’t want 2014 to be a battle….I feel I am facing foes on too many sides. It is exhausting and frankly taking away all the ideas of any FUN in life at all. 2014 needs to have more fun in it.
The family needs to pull together and face life as a group and a team….us against the world not against each other. We need to support each other and work to making life better for all of us in 2014. That would entail us actually all speaking to each other and so I guess that goal will have to wait…….
Happy New Year.
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