Tomorrow I get up early and head to Toronto for Blissdom Canada.
I am quite excited about this. Anxious too. I haven’t been away from all my babies since 2008 when I ventured to BlogHer in San Francisco. I am quite anxious about my little Tara not being around me.
BlogHer was a bit of a fog…I wasn’t prepared for it. Was overwhelmed by all the people. I found putting myself out there over and over to be very draining. I didn’t have a tribe then. I didn’t have close people to fall back on. I didn’t have a plan.
I don’t have a plan this time either, but I do know a heck of a lot more people who are attending. Including my flight and roommate ALotof Loves. For that alone, I am amazingly grateful.
Blogging has completely changed my life and me. It has shaped everything I do. What was an outlet for writing about raising my kids has become a medium of self analysis, self study and self growth. It has inspired me, shown me new ways to think, new career ideas, new aspirations.
I have made friends, gained connections and grown in my own self confidence.
To say I am a bit of a late bloomer would be an understatement.
I don’t know if blogging has made me a worse parent or better. I do think the person I am now is a better person than 10 years ago. I hope that reflects on my parenting and relationship skills.
So tomorrow I head into the wild blue yonder and leave very little in the form of instructions for those left behind. I am trusting in my mom and husbands abilities to help out while I am gone….and it is only until Sunday after all. This is a big thing for me……micro managing has always been a bit of an issue.
Being able to let go is a HUGE thing.
A lot lately has again been thanks to Kasia Rachfall. Her ability to help me focus on those inner thoughts and feelings has really shone a new light on how I was dealing with things and why. I cannot thank her enough. I HIGHLY recommend you connect with her if you feel that niggling urge to ‘sort things.’
Tonight I make sure my family is sorted…. I will miss them terribly…but seeing them Sunday will be so special too, especially after a fun weekend like this is sure to be.
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