Let Sleeping Dogs/Kids Lie

It is almost 10 am right now and all I can hear is the birds chirping and the dogs snoring.  They AND the kids are still asleep.  Why are the kids still asleep? Well, it is summer (still) and I let them stay up way too late last night.  But this is my reward.  A quiet morning where I have managed TWO cups of coffee hot and in peace.  I have been sifting through emails and reading – yes reading – a book of my choice  uninterrupted.

I do realize that adjusting them to a SCHOOL schedule in a little over a week is going to totally suck.  Adam is a night owl by nature and getting him to settle down before 10 pm is always a struggle.  So yes, I will pay for this peace.   He will be a grouchy zombie for a while as we drift into the school year – I won’t say plunge since the school year start is a slow and laborious process of short days and no lessons until classrooms are sorted…so really they have at least two weeks of September to adjust to a new routine.

I can’t say I am looking forward to it all.  While the holidays have made it tough to focus on my own projects, and the kids can drive me bat-shit crazy, I love being around my kids.  I truly do.  They are fun-loving, affectionate kids who make me laugh and I feel so spoiled by all the hugs and the clamouring for my attention even while being driven to distraction by it all.

The house will be very quiet when they are in school.  I am even trying to see if Tara will do preschool again this fall for a couple of days a week.  THAT will be interesting.

What will be good will be for me to get into a ‘work’ routine again.   My ‘bizness’ life has certainly suffered, specially this month…..the ability to focus and think beyond the kids has been greatly diminished.   Which has been terrible since there has been so many fun and exciting opportunities falling my way and I feel I have totally failed my ‘career’ self. HOWEVER.    While money and opportunities are very important to me, I remind myself over and over how lucky I am to be here at home with my kids while they are young and have to just remember to breathe and realize  I can’t do everything at the same time.

So today, when my kids FINALLY wake their lazy asses up, I will be happy to stop my work and take care of them and listen to THEIR stories and play catchup when they don’t need me as much down the road.