So despite ultrasounds that filled my specialist with confidence that NOTHING was wrong with baby, my Triple Marker blood work came back with warning signs that things were NOT great.
So…to Amnio we go.
We had genetic counselling with Caity and decided against getting amnio with her….and she was fine.
But with losing Scott, (even though that was not genetic) and my GREAT advancing age, my fears are so ramped up with this pregnancy, that I am pretty much okay with ANY test they throw at me.
Patrick accompianed me to my appointment and sat at the end of the bed rubbing and holding my foot while I tried to stay as calm as possible.
See our little baby waving around on the US screen helped a lot. I could watch that all day everyday.
It is the only time I feel I can breathe and just ENJOY being pregnant.
The procedure itself was not as bad as I was expecting. The reading of the consent forms, the meeting with the counselor and going over it all …AGAIN..was not helpful in ramping up the stress.
But my specialist is very kind and he helped a lot.
The actual putting of the needle in was painful..and then sort of ookey watching it plowing through my flesh on the US screen.
Baby did not move..stayed far away from the intrusion.
It was all over very quickly. And I felt fine after..but the aching and weak feelings sort of kicked in later in the day.
My stomach felt like I had been punched..hard…and I was feeling very tired.
I suppose all normal reacions to physical and emotional stress.
Today…my belly feels a tad tender…and I wish I could have someone ‘check me out’..you know..at least hear the babies heartbeat…just to reassure me.
But my appointment with a potential midwife isn’t until the 17th.
So I will worry I suppose.
And I am feeling amazingly emotional this morning. Very tender….very unsure.
I have ‘work’ responsibilities that I just can’t get my head around…sets my heart racing and anxiety setting in.
I suppose I should STILL be on my anti depressants..but I was doing fine without them…until now.
Fight or flight and all that..I just want to run away from it all.
My specialist still feels that things will be fine…..and that is nice to hear…the little babe looked great….that is all I have to go on.
Just have to wait two weeks for the results to confirm that.
CrAzY Working Mom says
Two weeks seems like a lifetime when you are awaiting results. But, no matter the final outcome, you’ll still worry…it’s all part of pregnancy, right?! I’m sending good thoughts your way, my friend! You deserve this and I am so excited for you. Keep us posted and take care of yourself!!!
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Amber says
Sending good thoughts your way! And I’m with you, I lurve me an ultrasound.
patois says
Two weeks goes by so damn fast…until you want time to fly. I’m really sorry you’ve got to wait so long. Please add my good wishes and thoughts to your list.
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Michelle says
Oh Crunchy, two weeks is so long! I will be “X”‘ing the days off on the calender with you.
It was lovely to read “the baby waving at you” – that warmed my heart. Hugs….
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mo-wo says
Before, after, during… What is best for babies is generally whatever it take to look after Mom. Take care of yourself. I know that wait. I remember the genetic counselling too much math… man did I NOT get that. Amnio I get. You know I’m a pass/fail kinda gal.
Find the moments to feel well take care
CJ says
Hang in there! I know it’s easier said than done! Wishing you the best news possible!!
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Jen says
Hang in there! Two weeks will be over sooner than you know it. I’m sure everything will be just fine!
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SmalltownRN says
OH I am so out of the loop….I remember there being a suspicion that you were preganant but I haven’t been around much…trying to recover from my surgery in December.
Congratulations ……yes 2 weeks can seem like an eternity…try and fill your mind with positive things and keep busy with your children now….I am sure they will find ways to distract you and time will fly by…..
cheers!
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followthatdog says
oh man, two weeks is an eternity when waiting for test results.
I didn’t realize you were pregnant, so congratulations. I will be sending you healthy baby vibes. Please keep us posted.
mariah says
Wow- two weeks sounds like a long time to wait for the results. Here’s to hoping that it all turns out well.
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Jeanne says
Good luck 🙂
I had amnios as well, and because I followed dr.’s orders to a T (i.e. took it really easy afterwards), there were no real side effects. In fact, for the procedure on my son, I didn’t even feel the needle go in (bizarre – I felt it with my daughter).
It’s such a load off when you get results, because then you know (either way). A nice bonus is finding out the gender of the baby.
The best advice that I can offer is to say relax (I know this is hard!!!) because it’s all out of your hands. Like my mom used to say to me, everything turns out the way it’s meant to. Hang in there 🙂
Katie says
Wow. You are such a brave and strong woman. I admire you and send only the strongest of thoughts for good things your way.
Katie