Yes..there IS another one!
I am about 14 weeks along…..I feel bad..I haven’t even told half my friends and NONE of my family.
It has all been weird.
While we are totally excited…with all the horror of losing Scott….just getting pregnant felt like a betrayal.
We are also a tad jumpy about ANYTHING being wrong or going wrong.
I have – for some reason – worried about people’s reactions to the news. I have been more comfortable telling aquaintances rather than close friends and family.
I really need to cal lthe relatives though.
Hence..not blogging about it. I have felt that I couldn’t really blog when I could pick up a phone and tell people in real life.
I still haven’t told family…well..MOM yes..but that has been about it.
And the kids.
They are excited. Adam is worried though….but has slowly been feeling better about talking about it all too.
Caity got to attend my last Ultrasound…she was fascinated.
And so far everything looks okay.
I feel okay too…just tired and barfy…my gag reflex is on over drive. I LOOK tired too. And am er a wee bitty more crabby than usual.
ME??
Anyway…we are slowly slowly allowing ourselves to get a teensy bit excited about the little thing….due in July.
I have an excellent specialist who is very comforting, and makes me feel very taken care of.
That is what gets me through it all.
I just have to get over the feeling that being excited about this one is a betrayal to our wee boy.
thordora says
WOW! Congrats!!!
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Erika Jurney says
You love the children you had before Scott, and you’ll love the one(s) after him too. There’s nothing wrong with that 🙂
I am over the moon for you. 2009 better be an amazing year for Crunchy Family! YAY!
Nicole says
Yay! (She finally spilled the beans too!)
There is enough love to go around to everyone 🙂 and I don’t think Scott would think its a betrayal; I’m sure he’s happy for you.
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BetteJo says
Congratulations! Happiness feels like a betrayal after a loss, but it’s not. Doesn’t mean Scott will mean any less to you at all. Enjoy!
Amber says
Congratulations!
I’m really happy for you guys. I’m hoping for lots of good things. 🙂
Maddy says
Being an older mum myself, and having experienced what I consider to be the personal tragedy of several miscarriages, I fully understand your trepidation. Doesn’t help much when people tell us to relax and not stress out.
I also understand how it’s easier to tell acquaintances.
It’s very hard not to think of it as betrayal even though common sense tells us that it’s illogical.
I didn’t tell anyone [family is abroad] until four months, so I really know what a strong urge it can be just to hold in the secret just a little bit longer.
Very best wishes
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Rhonda says
i knew it! some of the comments you’ve made on FB had me wondering but i didn’t want to come out and ask just in case lol
congrats Crunchy family! this is fantastic news!!
big huge ((HUGGLIES))!
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Gwen says
Congratulations Kerry. I am so happy for you.
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Shannon says
Oh Kerry! Congratulations! This is wonderful news. I imagine your feelings are perfectly natural given your loss of Scott but I hope that this pregnancy can be healing in some way for you, even though it won’t change the past. Hope you feel better soon!
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shaz says
congrats!!! i am sooo happy for you Kerry! Enjoy it. Try. 🙂 You’ll all be ok.
Jen says
What wonderful news! Congratulations sweetie!
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Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah says
SQUEEE!!!!! Congratulations. That is truly wonderful news.
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CharmingBitch says
Oh-honey-YAY!!!
And-no-it-isn’t-a-betrayal-of-Scott,not-by-a-long-shot.
patois says
Congratulations to you all. I hope you get past those feelings of betrayal very quickly. I realize that’s easy for me to say and hope. I do honestly believe that Scott is happy for you and for the one to come.
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fidget says
this, this has made my heart brim with happiness for you. Congrats!
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jenni williams says
I am sorry for the loss of Scott, I think in no way is it a betrayal to him to be happy about this little baby!
Congrats!!!
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mo-wo says
That is tremendous news!!!!! Congratulations!! Take it easy and hooray.
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Christina says
Oh, congrats!! I’m thrilled for you and I’m looking forward to following along with this new little baby!
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Michelle says
Yahoo! I am so excited about this! Can also relate to how it is easier to tell strangers than family. We did this with our pregnancy with Quinn as well……Give your bump a cuddle from cyber world!
Michelle says
here is the actual webpage. sorry, my bad.
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CrAzY Working Mom says
Congrats to you my friend. I’m super excited for you. It’s great news. I think that it will get easier as the pregnancy goes along.
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