Hence, the infrequency…sorry.
Also…feeling very uncomfortable so trying to focus on something GOOD to post about is hard…sorry Canada Moms Blog.
I am a big heaping pile of stinky feel sorry for myself these days.
Yesterday I spent feeling miserable with harsh false labour – AGAIN….all day long….and nothing.
The weather is gorgeous and I can barely drag my achey bulk around the house.
I feel like a prisoner of the bulk AND the contractions.
I also feel like I am ruining my kids summer even though they just finished school last week.
It isn’t like there is lots to do around the house….but it requires me ‘caring’. It requires me MOVING around and making sure they are safe, clean, wet, dry, and set up.
And lately I just wanna go hide under my blankets.
Cept laying down too much hurts…so I really need to sit in a chair with a blanket over my head. Would that be okay?
I did say I was feeling sorry for myself.
Today we are supposed to go to the hospital to try another ‘Version’ – the fancy term for pushing the baby around to convince her to face down.
However, they are too busy for us in the morning, so we now get to wait around all day to see when they can fit us in.
Part of me says don’t bother….she will do it on her own.
Part of me says don’t bother… just schedule a c-section and get her out.
All the chaos seems to be stemming from what due date they are all working from. I distinctly recall my specialist changing the date to the 14th…meaning, I have LOADS of time…shitty feeling or not and that she will flip when ready.
However….my Midwives are working from an earlier due date..the 9th…and so they are all fired up about me going into labour at any moment, etc.
I don’t see it happening.
I mean, I WISH it would…I am done. But I really think it will be a LOT closer to the 14th.
So more things to add to my irritation.
I really really suffer mentally when I am not on my game.
I like to be in charge.
I like to be dealing with stuff….and so I hate when my mental and or physical state erodes my feeling of control over life.
I feel like I am stuck in a holding pattern here….a sleepless and uncomfortable one.
I feel so bad for my family…dealing with my moaning and groaning and insane mood swings.
I want to be going places with my kids but really…really just want to sit alone and sulk.
Meh..you get the picture.
Fingers crossed that she will turn right way around, and that you don’t have to endure too much more of this false labour. I think you’re actually doing remarkably well under the circumstances.
Ooooh poor you. The due date thing would piss me off I think (aside from the false labour, inability to sleep and the heat). I agree with Amber that you are doing remarkably well. Good luck at the “version”!
I think given time she will turn for you, and good luck.
my best friend just recently got her little boy to turn around and face the right way. . . she said that a combination of laying with her butt stuck up in the air (on her knees with her head down on her folded arms. . . though I couldn’t really imagine how she managed that position) and also sitting with a bag of frozen peas on the top of her stomach (the theory being that the baby doesn’t like the cold and will move away from it) got him to turn.
I think he probly turned on his own but doing these things made her feel like she had some control over the situation. . . couldn’t hurt right?
Now, like you, she’s just sitting around waiting for labour to start for real.
I am still at least 8-10 weeks away from feeling your pain. But i know she does. Good luck!