So I got let go from my little part-time job yesterday. I didn’t earn much from it, BUT with Crunchy Husband without employment EITHER…well, every little bit helped. So I am a little bummed.
Add on the worries about dealing with income tax and gst screw ups, credit cards and car payments, dipping into our savings that was supposed to be for a HOUSE and a baby on the way…well, the Crunch family could collapse into a puddle of depression and worry.
I am most bummed about house buying plans being pushed ever further away from reality. I mean, NOT that it was a particlular CLOSE reality, but with the low mortgage rates, we could have probably found something out in the ‘burbs..far away from this place which is just driving us nuts.
However,…I am truly thankful that we ARE in rent controlled housing and that it is as nice as it is…..we are just growing out of lifestyle and space wise.
I was also holding of registering Caity for kindergarten as I am not looking forward to having to deal with the SAME teacher for yet another year. Dreams of a new school and fresh starts were filling my head.
Instead, I have to see how we can cut back and plan cheap activities for the warmer weather and hold of AGAIN on things like dental work for the kids (and me) and any other ‘luxuries’ that would have been covered by Pat’s old medical plan.
We have officially joined the ranks of the many many other families suffering through this recession..though Pat did not lose his job because of that..I did.
I am also bummed because May and June are birthday months for our kids…no income means we really gotta think about what we are going to do for them…NOT that we were every TOTALLY extravagant, but it all costs.
I am sure something will come up….but when and how and what is the big worry for me right now…..and it all sets us back…again.
We are not a family for getting far ahead that sadly is for sure.
Baby freakout are starting to creep in too….
You know..the ‘OH RIGHT!, AFTER ALL THE PREGNANCY WORRIES, YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH A REAL BABY AFTER ALL THIS’ thoughts.
Thoughts about how ready my family is….has my husband thought about dealing with a newborn AND two kids….is he ready to help MORE! I worry about the dog getting enough attention. I worry about the kids getting enough attention. I worry about juggling it all. I worry about the there not being ANY room for this baby….that dogs tail wipes out EVERYTHING.
I worry about the cleanliness of my house! I worry about keeping everyone fed and organized. I worry about keeping my sanity!
I worry about us remembering ANY newborn basics..from bathing to diapers, to soothing, to …well you get the picture.
And I worry about money for the few things we don’t have…..Stroller is a biggie. ROOM for a stroller is a biggie too! A new mattress for the crib. I really wanted to buy a moses basket with stand for our room. I think we sold our old baby bath. The cost of diapers…cloth OR disposable…..the anxiety goes on.
I am just feeling a tad put out and angry about it all.
But..not much we can do is there?
So we must just get on. Get done what we can…..budget, organize….worrying does not solve any problem. Wallowing does not solve any problems. We just have to fix what we can and be ready to ride the rest if it I suppose.
I’m sorry you’re dealing with this all right now. It sounds like a lot.
I can tell you, though, that the newborn stuff comes back quickly. It really does. That part, at least, will work itself out.
I’m so sorry!
You must keep believing that this is temporary and will get better.
These are very difficult times and I have tried to live by the saying “this to shall pass”. This past winter when I had my surgery and I thougt I would only be off for 6 weeks..which ended up being 4 months and then hubby having two emergency surgeries last month….has affected us drastically. But with that being said….somehow, somewhere something would happen that would just keep our heads above the water….and I am sure something will come along for you as well. I kow idle words…but it does happen….I doubted it…and I worried and worried and worried and what did that do…it flared up my eczema, my colitis and migraines….so I had to learn better ways of dealing with things…..
As for remember how to care for the new born…you will be amazed at how naturally it comes back to you…my girls were all almost 4 years apart from each other and somehow when they were born that mothering instinct just kicks in.
As for baby needs….garage sales are awesome for baby stuff…oh dear god I have found like almost new stuff for babies there…you name it…high chairs…wonderful fancy strollers, cribs….so try not to dispair….think about this wonderful little baby who you will be holding and looking up at you with love and curiosity….
It isn’t easy… no question about it. It’s important to remember, though, that your kids are unlikely to worry nearly as much about the “things” they’re missing – and having both parents around is a huge plus for them right now. You read so often about how kids growing up during the Depression had no clue that their parents were scrimping and saving – they just knew that it was beans for dinner a few times a week! Every little game of catch or special evening stroll counts toward a happy childhood – it’s the “power of small.”
Good luck,
Lisa
Oh Honey. Can you come see me again! I wanna talk. And, please please on the baby stuff. I am just at the end. I have a very nice crib mattress. You got a swing. Clothes, clothes and a little stroller too.
You are going to be an awesome new mom AGAIN.
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Things will get better! 🙂
The baby stuff will all come back to you. I had the same worries. You just can’t forget this stuff. It’s natural for us.
Take care of yourself, my friend.
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I am so sorry. I hope things start falling into place for your family soon, it’s just not fair what is happening to countless families. Ugh.
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Crunchy I have a baby bathtub and a moses basket (no stand, but) say the word and they are yours. Infant seat, too, with the vibrations. I would want the basket back for sentimental reasons but right now it’s holding stuffed animals.
will deliver. 🙂