It IS pretty miserable here.
As we speak (read/type,etc) my MIL is back in surgery. They are finally closing her up. We don’t know if this is good or bad. She had one bad moment the other night where her heart STOPPED, but has been holding her own ever since…on life support…but at least that is something.
I HOPE closing her up means something good. We really need some good news.
Crunchy Husband needs SOMETHING good. He is so messed up. The worry and then being sick on top of it….too much.
I have just been feeling plain awful.  The worry. The stress and this has got to be the WORST 1st trimester I have EVER experienced. I feel wretched. I have no energy and no appetite and just want to sleep all day.
They kids have had to put up with snapping angry parents all week long. What fun.
My neighbours…bless her. The one’s I do child care for. They took Adam and Caity with them for the boy’s birthday celebrations today. We didn’t have to go. Gave us a three hour break.  She has offered to take Adam to the Lantern Festival tonight too. Something we had been meaning to do for years.  So at least the kids have had SOME fun.
So between the worry about my MIL. Sulking about missing all the fun at BlogHer….well.  You can only imagine the atmosphere here.
I have not wanted to blog or to read blogs or to think blogs.   I let the guy down that I was doing paid stuff for. I just couldn’t.  There has been a wealth of material for Wet Coast…..and nope…have NOT felt like it at all.  Haven’t spoken to friends. Nothing.
This was such a missed opportunity.  I was going to get to speak to CBC Radio FROM the conference! How cool is that!?  I was looking forward to meeting all the people I am in awe of. I was looking forward to waving my now wasted business cards in everyone’s faces. I was looking for inspiration and ideas about my future with blogging and writing.
I know my MIL’s life and my families health is MORE important than any conference……but I was sooo needing it. It was going to be MY thing. My ONE thing where I wasn’t a wife and a mother. Something just for me.   To have lost that. Well, it really hurts. It was also going to be a mental health break…which I really need.
But now…..well what can you do.
For my husbands sake, I hope my MIL comes out of this. Â That family has suffered too much.
Anyway….I hope I feel better soon too and manage to pull myself up by my bootstraps.
The one good thing..I have done a lot of reading. It is my escape when things are bad. I have sat in my newly turfed back yard and read. And read.  That was nice.
See ya.
God, I feel for you. Pregnancy is hard enough without all the other stressors. I hope your MIL can come through this okay, but more importantly, I hope your husband will be alright regardless of what happens.
I feel so bad for you. I hope things turn out well for you MIL and family.
I totally sympathise with you. I would have been bummed if I had to miss out on the conference too. At the beginning of the year I’d a weekend away all planned (childfree and all, and that’s a real rarity) when my dad had a stroke the week before. I can tell I wished that he either didn’t have the stroke or had it after I got back but things don’t always work that way.
Hope you MIL pulls through.
congratulations on your pregnancy!
lucky mama!
Oh, girl…I hope things look up for you and your family soon. I’m sending lots of good thoughts to ya!
Take care.
Aw, sorry Crunchy. I’m sending some hugs your way.
Kerry, I am so sorry 🙁
Best hopes foryour mil, and I hope you feel refreshed and rested soon too.
Yeah. I think the sulk is justified. You took one for the team when it sucked. You would have rocked Blogher for us all.
Yeah you needed it.
— right and your preggers, now too. Double frack on that score.
As I lack better words.. I’ll simply say You are TOO nice.
Sulk is definitely justified as is a little foot stamping.
Best wishes
I feel so bad for you. I really understand about needing something just for yourself.. and now that it’s gone? *Sigh*