Sorry, I haven’t posted much. My moods and depression are swinging insanely up and down just now…probably due more to my cycle than anything, but I am finding it very hard to deal with.
Aside from that, we have been busy around the house. Spring cleaning and all that.
We woke up today to see the landscapers hacking down the horrid thorn bushes and another crew attacking the big hole in our yard. A nice site.
After dropping off Adam at preschool, I went and attempted to register Adam for Kindergarten. I say attempted because I had the WRONG birth certificate and they wouldn’t accept all the ID and all the mail as proof of our residency, they want our tenancy agreement. SUUUUURE I can find that. And they wanted all these numbers for emergency contacts, etc.
Maybe deep down I am not ready to register my baby for big school. I can’t believe that he will have to go to school. I mean, I enjoyed school… elementary anyway. But it marks such a leap in independent living and thinking…..away from me. What things will he pick up from his peers. Are my cuddles going to go away?
Adam and I butt heads like crazy….but I think it is because we are so similar. We are stubborn and passionate. He mirrors me ….I hear my snarky voice.  Not good.
But then he showers me with love. Insists that snuggles with mom are the ONLY thing that will get him to sleep at night. He tells me I am the best mom ever, when clearly I am far from it.
He brings out the worst in me…..and maybe that is a good thing sort of. He shows me my dark and ugly side. Challenges the brittle facade I put on for all. Makes me realize that I am far from the person I would like to pretend to be.
But he seems to love me flaws and all. He seems to get it. We have always said he is wise beyond his years.
So I need to work on my anger and sadness. A visit to the doctor will be arranged. I will work on things…..again.
In the mean time, Aurora is allowed to come home today. So we will arrange for that this afternoon.
I am going to attempt to rearrange my dining room again and deal with the armoire.
Crunchy husband is working on our finances, trying to get our debt organized and cleared up. He still wants to find out what sort of mortgage we COULD get so we can decide a plan of action on the home buying front.
Life trundles on.
I’m glad the kitty is doing better. Major vet issues are just terrible.
Is homeschooling an option for you? We have loved teaching our little ones at home so much. It can be challenging, but oh so rewarding, too. We use church/neighbors/clubs etc. for social time.
We are considering home schooling…it is very popular here..lots of support.
He just blossomed so much in preschool..an amazing preschool….and so think I want to see how he does there first.
It is an ok school. They have a good empathy program and he has older friends already there.
But we will see….my baby
I’m just looking for some feedback from interested moms out there…
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You sound like me- two years ago. I had dealt with the ups and downs, mood swings, you name it. I finally went to my doctor for help. I was ashamed to admit anything was ‘wrong’ with me. Thankfully, I have a wonderful doctor. He put me on Cymbalta. I have been on it for a little over 2 years. Best thing I ever did for myself, and my boys. They have a mom that’s now on an even keel. All the time!
I hope your mood gets better and I’m happy to hear that the kitty gets to come home.
Sorry you have been feeling crap!
Glad to hear cat is on way home 🙂
Oh you poor dear. My little girl is four and she is my mirror image and has my same bull headedness! But, I’m sure I’ll be locked away for a few weeks when she starts “real” school! 🙁
Glad the cat’s getting to come home as well.