Interlude

In about 15 minutes the kids will come crashing in the door.  My mom, bless her, has offered to go pick them up for me this time since Tara is having a late nap.

So right now..right this moment..there is nothing but SILENCE in the house.   And dishes and laundry…..but whatever…SILENCE!!!

I SHOULD be planning a snack attack for the kids since Adam ALWAYS comes home hungry and doesn’t want ANYTHING that we currently have in the fridge.

I should also be prepared to be yelled at as he has no doubt tried to plan some sort of elaborate playdate and his plans will be RUINED (dramatically) because I wasn’t there to talk to the mom about it…..GAH!

Oh and the reminder that laundry was promised to be picked up with be angrily cast aside over the injustice of missing a playdate.

But honestly….I don’t care.  I don’t want to negotiate play dates right now. I don’t want to fuss over food for snacks.  I don’t want to see who is coming over or if anyone is allowed to play video games.  I don’t want to do that.

Some days…the effort of dealing is huge.   And no..I am not feeling depressed or sad or angry…..I am just really really enjoying the silence right now and the thought of that being destroyed by loud anguish of a six and eight year old is currently not on my to do list.

My hair stylist gave me a big stack of magazines to read.   I would like to do that right now.  With a cup of tea.

The thought that all the noise and mess and tv will come pouring into the house any minute now is making my teeth ache.

My house is a spectacular disaster..but I just want to sit here…in the silence.

It is lovely.

I have said before that I am a bit of a hermit.   Being thrown DAILY into children’s busy and loud social lives is a bit startling for me.

We have new neighbours whose kids get along with our kids and we like the parents and the nanny….however we are all a bit weirded out by their ‘friendliness.’   They are very open and forward and us cranky shut ins are just not used to it.  It is good.  I like it….it makes me readjust how  I react to things.   Break the cycle and all that.   They have been great in reminding me that just going with the flow is a good and less stressful way to live.

But I still like my quiet!

Tara is a very loud and destructive toddler.   Peace is now a precious commodity.  And yes..Tara was with my for my hair cut…loudest hair cut ever!!!    I should have left her a bigger tip.