Primal Screams

First let me say that yes..I am THANKFUL for this baby in waiting.   I am thankful that all things have gone as they should (touch wood).

I am thankful for being healthy.   

But I am so done being pregnant.

How on earth did miss this?  Really…..I think my husband has it taped somewhere, that I actually missed being pregnant!

How?

I have like 7 weeks to go.

She has shifted down..head is now resting in my groin.  I cannot bend down now.

I keep getting MAJOR false labour sesssions.  They go on for ever.

I have been told they get worse after each subsequent pregnancy.  Joy.

I keep ruining shirts by pressing against things I am trying to clean.

I also feel stupid.

I am convinced each week of pregnancy is killing more brain cells.  I am incapable of making a decision or thinking for myself these days.

I really really feel bad for my husband who is faced with my blank and or bewildered looks every single day.

I don’t think I make much sense these days.

I also hate feeling on the verge of tears for no reason.    Or overwhelmed.

I used to be quite feisty.  Now I feel like my hunter/protecter must take his club and deal with all issues, while I cower behind him.

How primal.

I also drop things a lot.  And really…my driving SUCKS.

And cooking…I burned corn yesterday.   In a pot.  With water.

I burned toast today.

Sigh.

I hate wishing the time away.

My sons 7th Birthday is tomorrow….this is a big deal…I want to make a big deal of it.

My daughters 5th Birthday is next month.

There is a lot of stuff going on in June.  Stuff I want to be a part of.

Or you know, just be in like statis or hybernation till my due date.