Hormones, Nesting or I am just batshit crazy

Husband will probably pick ‘batshit crazy’ as he is the one who has been putting up with me.

See, in 07 I really felt I was losing it when I was pregnant.  To the point that I went on some mild anti depressants and prenatal therapy.  Huge foreshadowing there, huh.

So I survived.  

When I found I was preggers again..I sort of did a ‘self diagnostic’ and figured I was doing okay and stopped all my meds.

And yes..I have been doing pretty good.  As good as anyone I suppose, pregger or not.

But I have my moments.

Friday I was an OGRE.  HORRID.  I don’t think I said one thing to the kids in a ‘normal’ tone.

They did deserve it though…really.  Adam never backs down on a campaign for ANYTHING.  No means nothing.  Even if it comes with a basic explanation.  NOT GOOD ENOUGH.  He will whine or badger you, figuring you will give up.  I don’t though. 

Not when it comes to some good life lessons.  Or at least opportunities for life lessons.

I do wish for a day when no means no though, and that is it.

And that you don’t get ‘rewards’ for EVERYTHING!   Breathing doesn’t mean you get a gift.   

It was to the point where my poor husband dared life and limb and pointed out that for my ‘health’ I need to chill out and just yell for help if feeling overwhelmed.

Ouch.

This weekend though…I have been feeling better.  

My energy levels seem to have organized into a more NORMAL pattern…and I was thrilled to survive 6 hours out of the house on Saturday with a kids birthday party chucked in there too!

Yesterday my ‘nesting’ instincts kicked into over drive.

I put together the new stroller

I swapped out busted blinds for working one’s.

Cleaned windows

Dusted corners

Did loads of laundry 

and FINALLY cleaned out downstairs closet and put away all the wrap (CHRISTMAS!!!) and birthday wrap away.

I now have a pile of things to go into our storage locker.

And there is room in the closet for the new stroller….which I love and am totally thrilled with.  Today I may even see how it fits in the car!

Today (this afternoon anyway) I need to check out some mystery stuf in Caity’s room and see if I can clear out the closet a bit more for her stuff.

We need to take down her play house and decide if it is going to go into storage or be set up outside for her to play in over the summer.  I think that might work…specially with the little girl now living next door…they can play there together and I can hear them and keep an eye on them.  The girl lives with a mom who doesn’t seem to care about WHERE her 5 year old is or who she is playing with.  She is out all day and appears to mostly feed and dress herself.  She is a really nice kid who, by going on the dried snot all over her face, could really do with a wash and some allergy meds.

This is just ONE of the things on my list.

There is the usual cleaning too.  But with the kids and stuff trooping in and out of the house right now, floor cleaning isn’t a priority.

That reminds me…deal with burning smell in Vacuum asap.

I am also getting used to the whole gestational diabetes eating thing.  My readings have not been RIGHT where they need to be, but not bad.  I am happy with the results.  Which means THEY won’t be..but I feel that I must have reached a good balance because of not feeling starved etc….I feel good.    

So there.