Conditions are Deteriorating

 

 

That is the filing that is supposed to be in the file boxes UNDER my desk.

 

I originally HAD an excuse for this.  See, there was a couple of people that we weren’t going to see until AFTER the holidays and so I hadn’t wrapped their gifts right?  Sigh….  I won’t talk about the dead tree outside.

There are a lot of bodies crammed into this teeny townhouse.

None of them are terribly tidy. 

Some apparently have a mission to make sure the place is as UNtidy as possible.

I am not doing a great job keeping on top of it.

Pregnancy is my main excuse.

Sick of it all is my other.

I do have my little part time job…it tends to use the teeny tiny window of full blown energy I get once a day…this leaves the house to is own devices.

Like today…right now I should be showering and getting ready to pick up Caity from Pre school.  But instead, I am writing this post.

This am I got the kids ready for school and then sat and swore at my computer for a few hours (for work) and did work emails too.

I DID managed to clean up the dining table (again).  AND wash a pile of dishes (again).   AND take out the garbage (again).

See..the small jobs eat away at your time even MORE and then things like dusting, vacuuming, laundry, repairing curtains, blah blah blah….well…yeah.

I also don’t sleep well these nights.    That is I – me – NOT counting the interuptions from dogs, cats, kids, husbands, is not sleeping.

And then I have to get up and do all this stuff.

Riiiight.

Anyway….I did get set up with my new midwife clinic.  They all seem very nice and took down my life story.

Caity liked the toys.

I have ANOTHER ultrasound – routine one – coming up next  month and with the good news from the AMNIO (yay) we can slowly slowly relax about this baby….well just a little.

Was again saying to my mom (and the midwife) how poor Scott was doomed from the start…not only with all the outside stresses going on….but that pregnancy was awful and ‘wrong’ from the start compared to this and Caity and Adam.

I spotted early in the pregnancy..never did that with C and A.  Haven’t with this on.

I was in severe pain constantly with Scott.   

I was sick sick sick….between morning sickness, pain and then pneumonia….and of course, the Parvovirus that killed him.

Here with this one…..just all the usual pregger things when you are old and overweight.  NOTHING serious really so far…touching wood right now.

You really wonder why?

Why was it like that?

Why does stuff like that happen to one little innocent and not another?

Were we too cocky?  Just because of Caity and Adam…did we not pay enough attention?

I almost feel guilty with the focus THIS baby and pregnancy is getting.  

Because is that what is doing it?

It could drive you batshit crazy.