Just got PC back hooked up and it has already crashed once today.
Holding my breath as I really don’t want to lug it back to the guy.
Hopefully it is happy now.
It has been a bit ‘domestic’ around here.
I can now truly admit that until Crunchy Husband started working OUTSIDE of the home, that I wasn’t a real Stay-at-home-mom…not until now.
I kiss my hubby goodbye early in the morning and he heads for work.
I hustle kids to school.
I shop and run errands.
I pick up kids from school.
I referee all the fights outsdie the house while the play.
I fix bikes.
I fix booboos.
I COOK family dinners.
I put the grommits to bed.
Ack.
And before I could do it all with help from the hubster.
Now it is done all alone…unless my mom is around and willing to keep me company.
She also helps keep an ear out for trouble when they are outside.
Thank goodness.
It is all quite domestic.
And while I miss my husband, I am getting used to and enjoying the new routine.
It does wipe me out though.
I am tired by the end of it all.
The one thing I am really enjoying is my son’s confidence in himself. He seems comfortable in his own skin.
He seems to be happy playing with many different children in our neighbourhood.
He is also enjoying staying at school all day long.
His confidence means he doesn’t feel the ‘need’ to play with the kids here who are em….snotty. And only snotty because of their parents.
I have come to realize that my neighbours dislike me for my lack of gossipness. I am not out ‘sharing’ dirt or trash talking people. How dare I keep my mouth shut!
I really feel…around them especially….that if I don’t have anything good to say…that I may as well not say anything at all.
I have also found that since losing Scott, that my social anxiety is more prevalent…in that I would rather not talk to people who make me feel awkward. Instead, I prefer to save my energies for people I like.
I am also not seeking their vast parental knowledge. I LIKE my kids the way they are…mostly.
If you don’t like em…tough shit.
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