Mrs. Flinger started my day down memory lane with her contribution to a ‘Flashback Friday.’

Ah the 80’s

I was in high school from 81 to 1986.

I was then what we called a ‘prep.’ I wore lots of pink.

There was a lot of pink at our grad.

In 1988….I had big curly hair. I still really like perms on me.

I loved ‘New Wave’ music.New Order were my gods.As were Tears for Fears….this was the anthem…the soundtrack to our lives. To our angst.
You remember teenage angst?
We were all full of pain and heart ache and ‘nobody understands me.’
And yes, some of us really did have big issues….others….like me…were just teenagers.

I listened to the Eurythmics and new all the lyrics.
I wrote poetry about unrequited love.
I drew cool people….
I was also a total nerd.

I never fit in. I read (still do) comics and sci fi. I never seemed to care about the same things everyone else did.

But I loved my music. And I loved to dance.

When we discovered the after hours clubs and the places that we could sneak in to….that was it. I danced my troubles away.

After my summer gig at Expo 86, I met my first true love in a club. We shared a love of music and dancing and looking good. A shallow shallow relationship. I was so in awe of him. I basked in his coolness. I basked in the envy I was sure other girls felt.

I was destroyed when he broke up with me.

I was 19 and life was over.  I played Bizarre Love Triangle over and over.  I used to watch him at the key cutting place he worked at at Oakridge Mall from afar.   I signed up at Langara College because I knew he was going there.

Through it all he seemed (politely) oblivious to my need for him.   He always greeted me with charm and warmth.  He for years called me on my birthday.

And I danced.

It pathetically took me a long time to get over it all.  To retain my dignity.

Well….till I was 21 and met my now husband!

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i was ‘acquiring’ a couple of hundred dollar bills from CH..he had just been given money that was owed him..then I reminded him about what he owed me and that momma needed a new haircut.

He sighs and hands me the cash…

Adam says to him…”Girls huh?’

Dh laughs and says ‘you don’t even know what you are saying.’

Adam replies…”oh. I know girls.’

Earlier, in the car he told me his BFF had given him a gift.

B.F.F.

In kindergarten.

He says that all his class are B.F.F’s

The Crunchy Clan are now officially going to be in Californieh - Disneyland to be exact - at the beginning of April.

Are there any So-Cal bloggerific folks wanna meet up there!? Or meet for drinkies or something?

Lemme know!

Oh and this creature!!

fell on her face today at preschool…but was very brave about it. She really enjoyed the worry and love from her big brudha as she says.

She also got an excellent progress report from preschool. Apparently, when not in OUR company she is a charming happy child!

That the upgrade has solved the porn thing.

Thanks to my savior…..the person who ended my fuming frustration by offering to help me…Phat Mommy.

The upgrading thing was causing me some fear and she stepped in and offered her services. Phew.

I should be at the gym right now. But felt that I had too much to do at home. Hah.

My frustration stems more from the fact that CH does not share the same urgency about the SAME things as I do. But this goes both ways. He is worried about OTHER things. His list is a bit different from mine.

Breathe. Let it go.

Things that I have to tackle are…

- Hair cuts for me and the kids

- dental check ups for me and the kids. Apparently Adam’s mouth is a disaster zone…according to the people at school.

- CH’s business taxes

- Selling stuff

- Downloading all the video on the camera to the computer and preferably to a disk for safety..before Disney

There is more…..oh yes, there is more…but I will get to it all one thing at a time.

What is WAY more important to me is arranging our social calender . I am seeing my old high school buddy next week…very excited about that. However, I need to arrange a dinner with my best friend and some other friends that we have not socialized with in a while and then another couple wants to get together too and we haven’t seen them in over a year!

Phew.

We saw the prepartum therapist lady again yesterday. She basically just likes to see how we are doing with our grief and my depression. I find this hard as I don’t ‘feel’ depressed all the time. I have ups and downs and feel that I am getting on with it and dealing with my little Scott just fine.

As well as can be expected is the term.

She is going to refer us to a child therapist to see if Adam does have any OCD or ADD tendencies. I just want to make sure he does okay with school and to get help channeling all his energy.

She also referred me to a more ‘long term’ therapist. But sheesh. I will have to think about this. She feels ‘getting to the bottom’ of it all will help me…but I am more concerned about living in the now and the future than delving once again into any past baggage.

PLUS I want something that CH and I can both go to as I really do feel that he needs as much ‘help’ as I do. I would rather find some sort of couples therapy that can help him deal with HIS issues - depression, fears, etc.

Adam proudly wore pink today for the Anti-Bullying day they proclaimed here in BC. It was sweet hearing him explain it to his little sister…about how you have to stop kids being bully’s.

I was bullied a little bit by a new kid in elementary school. My dad stopped that. The kid used to harass me on my way to the bus stop….Dad just parked and waited out of site one day, so he could see what was happening. He stepped out of the car as we walked by..said hello to me and then hello to the bully. The boy never bothered me again.

I loved my dad.

A post by Red Monkey got me thinking…reminiscing really.

Was all childhood about escape?

I read voraciously as a kid. A lot of fantasy and adventure books - A Wrinkle in Time, The Phoenix and the Carpet, etc. A lot of Enid Blyton.

I basically wanted to be a upper middle class English girl who rode ponies and had magical adventures.

But it wasn’t just a ‘ooooh wouldn’t that be nice’ feeling. I hungered for this life. I ached for it. There was a park near us called Silver Knowes. It had fairy rings in the grass. I used to stand in them. Hoping that the fairies would steal me away.

My life wasn’t bad. I wasn’t beaten, abused or neglected. I had (and still do) and amazing mom.

It never occurred to me to think about those that would miss me while I was away on my ventures. A true narcissistic child mind.

I have a feeling this is fairly typical for most kids, given the ongoing theme of many childrens books.

The core theme in many is ’self reliance.’ A child faced with incredible odds and forced to deal on their own or with companions, but with no mommy or daddy to help them. Adults in most adventures are usually creatures not to be trusted.

Is all this a reaction to being told continually told what to do and not to do?

That we were all chafing at our confines.

I guess the big differences in all of us are that SOME adults to ‘escape’ and other’s don’t. Some go off to lead wildly adventurous lives and the rest of us stay home.

And do role playing games.

Or World of Warcraft.

Hee…kidding.

My other big thing was drawing. CH and I were saying that we loved those ‘cross-section’ drawings of buildings or planes or boats. I used to draw them…big space ships and so on.

Details. Much planning.

I perhaps should have been an architect.

I am deleting it as it shows right now.

I basically need to upgrade WP to get rid of it…but HATE doing that as I need to CONCENTRATE as it is hard for people like me…with kids…you understand.

I have asked my host people to take a look too and am waiting to hear back from them.

So apart from the porn..I really got nothing.

Trying to clean my house. It is hard with all the boxes of clothes lying around.

I am cleaning out baby stuff….THAT is depressing.

I have stuck some stuff on craigslist to see if it will go. I have had a few people interested, but no takers yet.

CH seems in a slightly better mood today too so hopefully the week will go better than the weekend did.

We are hoping to get dentists scheduled for kids and me and hair cuts too.

I had to do homework with Adam this weekend too…he apparently is cheesing his teacher off by not completing work in class.

I can see why ….he is soo impatient and just wants to do it HIS way. He knows his stuff. I had to explain to him that he needs to work on showing the teacher more that he does actually know his letters and sounds.

I don’t think I am cut out for homeschooling.

Anyway…I will keep it up with the porn attacks and try to fix this asap…

Sorry gang

I …don’t ask me why…..DELETED all my images that I had through DIVSHARE…SOOOOOO

Some of my nice FUN posts with FUN photos of everyone now don’t make any sense.

It is like I really don’t want you to read my site.

Seriously….this weekend could not get any worse……

Sheesh..

Between yelling at my kids

Being yelled at by my kids AND CH

To the porn on my site

To dealing with SELLING baby stuff

To poor CH dealing with selling his mom’s stuff…

CRAP CRAP CRAP

Oh well, we will have lots to tell the therapist next week.

I don’t even know how to get rid of them.

I suppose there is some sneaky code or bot thingie hiding somewhere. But I have no clue where to look!

Times like this I curse at not being techie minded and CH is even worse! We are users of this wondorous toy…not experts.

I suppose cookies must be cleaned out and all that.

Anyway….Sorry for the porn.

Maybe I will get more hits!

Ok..I contacted the host of the url that was sending the porn this way and they are shutting it down…I will search my end for glitches too and keep me posted of any more weirdness

I don’t mean to rub it in, but check out Vancouver in February!